Ever dated someone you detest? Someone you are disgusted with?
I am divorced, in my 40s. He left me because I couldnt get pregnant. So I live alone. After such experience, my faith in humanity was lost, so I didnt want to get involved with anyone, ever again.
I work in public service, a place surrounded by men, which made me act like a man myself. I understand that my body is still in good shape, but I have always been everything else, but pretty. Had a severe problem with acne vulgaris at my teens, so, even though it is resolved, it left scars on my heart, besides my face.
Before this, I havent had sex in almost 15 years, since he left me. I did it all by myself. And I never thought I will again.
But, he came along. He was so persevere. I did owe him a favor, something work related, so I agreed to go out with him. He is fat, ugly, ten years older than me, and he smells. Gave him a sympathy hand job after that "date", barely managed to find it underneath that belly of his. And he left me some money.
I am ok, financially. I thought I would be offended, but I felt good. "At least I got something out of it".
We went out again. We tried to have sex, but he is just too fat. Only way he could reach me down there, was for him to get on his back, pull his stomach up, and for me to try to sit on him. Didnt work. Tried from the reverse side. He barely got in. He then tried to lick me, and he even was bad at that, but it did get me off.
This time, he left me a lots of money.
Now, I see him once or twice a week. We have dinner, and go to my place to do something. Since he is, what he is, he usually just jerks off on my feet, while I lie down naked. That, or I give him a hand job.
I earn from him, more than I do on my job.
Still, it makes me wanna puke, whenever I see him.
